I am writing this mere hours after finding out about my dads death. I was there to help him through the last bit of his life. I held his hand until i was sent to bed by both my mum and dad. This was obviously because he was preparing to pass into the light.
I’d like to say something about my dad.
He was an honest man, a man who you could always rely on. My dad was always a relatively well known man as he was always the one to do the favours for the neighbours. My dad was an electrical engineer, he was always doing practical things such as building cupboards and sheds etc. He is the reason why I am such a good person. But i wish he knew how much he meant to me, some say he did. Im not sure. What i do know is that I will always love my dad with all my heart.
You have know drifted away into the light, may you have a peaceful afterlife, and i hope you’l be there to steer me through my life, watching over me.
I love you Dad!
Always And Forever
R.I.P.
So worried about my dad at the moment. Im having to take care of him all the time, my mum isn’t well either…but she’s not even here. Me and my brother are juggling full time jobs whilst taking care of him. Im breaking! :(
I found out today that a friend blocked me on Facebook, they’ve deleted me on tumblr….and thats a shitty feeling. Life can’t get worse… Oh wait, I’ve got shit loads of work at the moment…any worse…oh wait…My dad is potentially terminally ill. What the hell did i do to deserve this?! I can’t even think of sleeping…But nobody can talk to me… Why Why Why?
I don’t need people shitting on me at the moment, and if they can’t be arsed with me then fuck right off! And my friend Jon, we’ve suddenly lost touch and that sucks because he used to be like a brother to me. Now we just don’t talk. Why don’t i text him? Because the only times i can are about this time (02:00) and i just… AHHHHHH! :’(
(Source: fuckyeaahniam, via april-f1rst)
Last night i was fine, but suddenly i just dropped. Things hit me…I realised that i have basically done nothing with me life. I have essentially failed myself. Why? Because I dropped out of uni-But is that harsh considering it was due to needed major surgery (i never seem to give myself any slack). Major operations have haunted me throughout my life and i never seem to realise that. I just have the lowest opinion of myself even though I’m such a nice guy. Why are girls never interested in me, I’m always the best friend….
I deserve somebody special dont i?
